Playlist on Repeat

Certain songs
Press on you heart
With invisible weight
And leave marks
Of the person
your memories conjure.

You hold your chest
Hoping the pain will leave
If you relax
And breathe right
The song stops
Yet your heart continues to ache.

Worry not,
The ache will turn into throbs
The throbs will calm down and fade
When finally you get to steady yourself
That’s when the next song
Starts to play.



Been driving forever
With tears in my eyes
While the sun sets
Wishing for your soul on my side.

The greens of the mountains
The grays of my days
The cool breeze on my cheeks
The cold grip of my nights.

These long drives
Both kill and breathe life
Both calm and chaos
To my grieving, dying heart.

I’m nearing my destination
I’m nearing the end
This winding road
Always leads back to one place.

Now I stand by your door
Wanting to feel once more
Wanting to breathe once more
Because at this moment
You’d see my head held high
But my heart has shattered on the floor.



Been in this bed
The whole day now
The scent of yesterday
Still on my skin
My mind wandering
To places it hasn’t been.

Just lying here
Going in and out of dream land
Thinking of heartaches
And heartbreaks
That love gives
To those brave enough to seek it.

Been staring
At the four corners of the room
From daylight to darkness
And the passing time
Fading like memories
That you and I used to have.

Just floating here
My eyes blinking in the dark
Conjuring images
From shadows and the play of light
Wishing to see
A glimmer of hope for us.

Been lost
Since the time I left you
Been found
But I break your heart again
And for your sake please stop
Because I know I could never give your heart back.